As I sit back I wonder why
Why do I keep thinking about you as each day passes by?
Why is it I still remember those times we spent
Analysing everything you said and meant?
It’s been a while since we parted
But the thoughts haven’t yet from my mind departed.
You hurt me enough and made me cry
But it was you who also made me smile
You gave me enough pain to last me a lifetime
But at the same time you moulded me into the person I am
You covered my weaknesses and brought out my strengths
But it was you who made me weak again.
You made me feel special after a really long time
Made me realise that I have someone I can call mine.
You made me walk with my head up high
Without any worries, troubles and nothing to cry.
I fell in love for the very first time
And dreamt of my future with you by my side.
But the dream was soon over and my nightmare begun
You left me stranded, alone and stung.
You made me cry and I hated you for that
You left my side when I needed you real bad.
It didn’t take you time to say goodbye
Forget the love, there seemed to be no remorse in your eye.
But even after all that pain
About you I still feel the same.
I still want to see you coming back
To hold my hand and love me back.
I cherish those moments sweet and sour
Which made me and you whom we are.
I try to analyse how much ever I can
Wonder why I feel for you through so much angst.
However, complicated my thoughts seem
The answer is simple and the only reason I need.
You are the first and will always be
No matter how much pain you have inflicted upon me
Those happy memories will make me feel complete.
You have taken my heart and I don’t want it back
Because without you in something my life will always lack.
Someone else may come and liven up my life
But you will always remain special, the first love of my life.
